I feel more in control now that I know I'm not crazy. I got the results of my psychological evaluation today for Bariatric surgery. He gave me quite a lot to think about. I've so been out of my element this last year, since we got custody of Ethan. Now I know why I've been so stressed. He gave me some great tools to deal with things.

Can you say .... journals are my life??? With a grandkid in 1st grade and all my doctor appointments, I thought keeping a date book was bad. Now I keep a journal for the mommy visits and such because the lawyer said it would help us. In the last 4 months I've been keeping a food journal . I also put a dry erase calendar on the refrigerator today as a tool for Ethan behavior, we started up Reward Board again too. He's tickled, he actually enjoys the rewards of following the rules.

Maybe more tomorrow...it's almost bedtime, gotta run.

It's morning it's quiet it's beautiful. DH is off to his brothers house to fix the breaks on his truck, little master Ethan is still asleep and I sit here enjoying my very needed quiet. Mommy will be here to pick up Ethan later this morning for the day. It's a break we all need. It was a battle of wills last night.

Ethan got sent home disciplinary notes this week, one from school and one from the bus. He knew his punishment was his wrestling shows on TV. I'm glad we waited until after supper to brooch the subject. It was an hour and a half of crying, begging, trying to hurt himself, saying what a jerk he was and he was going to kill himself. These fits are so scary...I see so much of his moms behavior come out when he's upset. But all the positive reinforcement, love and calmness (that was the hard part) finally got through to him.

I saw my Bariatric surgeon this week, everything is going fine. They will compile all my information next week to see if we've covered all the bases for the insurance company. My family doctor put me on Chantix to help me quit smoking. It worked, I quit yesterday and no longer have the urge. I will say this is the easiest of all the times I have quit. Not only do I not have the craving for nicotine,the last two I smoked made me physically ill. Plus all I've done is cough up crap the last couple of days. I really am feeling great physically and about life this morning!

I made a header for this blog but as you can see I haven't figured out how to make it fit,I'm going to try and figure it out today (any hints?). Knitting pics will come today! Today is all about what I want to do! It's actually doctors orders...to spend more time on me...can't wait till I tell DH that one. To be continued later.......